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Aramid - Audiomachine

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Another month passed and it wasn't much different than the other ones. You are embarrassed about your results, but probably even more by your professionalism. For some reason, you think you are allowed to call other players out for their low volume while totally overlooking the fact that you are lazy as fuck. It's the true reality, you don't have a job, so you can take advantage of the poker opportunity to the max, but you choose not to.

Instead of putting in volume and study time, you prefer to comment on others' player decisions, you hate this attitude but you continue to do it. Maybe it's time to stop and focus on what truly matters, so stop pointing the finger at other people and turn it around to yourself. You aspire to be a full-time pro, but you can't even manage to log hours, you dedicate to poker less than a part-time job. This gotta change, really quickly.

Some days ago a player told you to quit the game because you have so mental issues that you cannot succeed. He told you that you should be better off working in construction for a fixed hourly than playing poker. At first glance, you thought you didn't take it personally, but in reality, you did. You hate people telling you what to do. You welcome advice, even if you tend to take them on a personal level too, but someone ordering you something makes you pout.

You don't want to quit poker, in fact, you still choose poker every day, but you continue to do the same errors over and over again, without pondering. In the previous post, you highlighted how something changed in your last month, and how you felt different, bullshit. Nothing changed, you are the same as before and this makes you depressed. You savor an improvement only to get swept off your feet abruptly.

15 years ago you used to skateboard a lot, you had fear of your own shadow and it was very complicated to get better initially. Everyone told you that you should quit because you weren't good at it. At the time, instead of pouting, you channeled that anger into something tangible. You spent countless hours practicing, recall it, recall how you breathe skateboarding. Every day was a chance to get better and practice until you mastered something. At the end of your journey, you had even 2 sponsors, you were proud of yourself.